A clean room!

So whos ready for BEDA number 10. I'm not sure i am! Lets start with what i've done today. Not that that's interesting but it seems like a good thing to mention. I cleaned my room all of today. It was about a foot deep in random stuff... and was getting annoying. So i woke up at 10:00 am and decided, i will clean my room. Yeah maybe it was a dumb idea, and an awful way of spending a perfectly nice Sunday, but now my room is clean. Which is a good thing. I also had a flute lesson, but that's really not an interesting thing to mention. While i was cleaning, i was just about to give up, because i hit the point where everything just looks worse than when you started. Luckily i pushed through, and got to a point where it was cleanish and i really wanted to be done. No one would understand how much i WISHED it was done. I listened to ALL CAPS, Alex Day, and Charlie McDonnell on repeat during my cleaning. I have no regrets about it :D

I was thinking today about all the dreams i have, and everything i wish for that never comes true. There are days when all i want is to find something i've lost, or find a boyfriend, or find a best friend, even just a true friend. Sometimes these wishes come true, but more than not, i'm just left wondering if they ever will. Sometimes i wish for people to see me for me, or to know my purpose in life, but if i knew the purpose in life what would the excitement be. Me being the curious, stubborn, weird person i am, i ponder these things A LOT. And of course when you ponder something and don't get an answer, you get annoyed. So someday i'm annoyed only because I've been pondering these unanswered questions all day, and yes i'm aware that that's weird. (but i did say i was a weird person earlier now didn't i?)

I also ponder the concept of True love quite a bit. I've never been in love so i wouldn't know what that's like, but i'm always curious if there is someone out there just for me. Maybe dating other people is just so you get practice knowing who's not right for you, so when you find the right person you know. Maybe i'm crazy for pondering things like this, but i just do. I always have tried to figure out things that i either don't have the background to figure out, or there isn't an answer. Whenever i come across a question about my life i always try to tell myself that only time can tell, but is that true? Will time ever tell me what i want to hear, or teach me about myself. Maybe when i'm older i'll be able to answer this. But for now I guess i should just say i'll see you guys tomorrow.

↓Well Goodnight Alot↓

My friend Celeste sent this to me a while ago and i feel it would be fun to share. Enjoy Alot.
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2010/04/alot-is-better-than-you-at-everything.html